“Gay, Catholic, and Doing Fine” by Steve Gershom

“Gay, Catholic, and Doing Fine” by Steve Gershom

I love this article!  It hurts when people say that the Church hates gays, and whenever I try to explain my position, I feel like all these misconceptions lead others to put words in my mouth.  Gershom says it all pretty well here.

Hail Holy Queen – Danielle Rose

I didn’t really know the prayer until I heard this beautiful rendition of the Hail Holy Queen set to music. I think the words that hit me the most are the very ending:

“…that we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ.”

In the depths of my heart, I think that might be my biggest struggle. I don’t really feel worthy of Christ’s love, often, even though I know that His love is undeserved and unconditional. I think Mary understands this pain.

Honestly, I have some trouble with Marian devotion. I’m trying to pray to her more and come to love her as my Holy Mother. Any advice on growing a bond with Mother Mary?

Another Return

I always go MIA for long periods of time, then come back suddenly.  I guess you’re all used to that by now.  I guess a lot has happened, and I really do need to “restaple” my heart to Christ.  It’s been a hard year, but I’m ready to stop living in fear that I’m somehow beyond God’s reach.  Depression, eating disorder, anxiety, Dad leaving me—my God is greater than the sum of my fears.  Just a stream of consciousness prayer I wrote to God today:

 

Lord,

I ask You constantly for things I can’t even comprehend, so I’m going to humble my prayers to layman’s terms.  I’m looking for Your peace, Lord, first and foremost.  I pray that You will help me to quiet the intrusive, fear-stricken voices in my head so that I may listen to You instead and come to hear the quiet words You whisper into my heart.  I trust that You’ll bring me back to Your arms, Jesus, and I promise You that I will, by the help of Your grace, let Your gentle, loving voice lead me back home.  I’m a little lost right now, Jesus, but I will not give up.  I love You more than I can understand, and, if nothing else, I will always stretch my arms toward You as You pull me back to shore.  Again, I’ll say it, Jesus: I love You.  I’ll give You my nothing if it’s all I have.

Amen.

 

Out of context, I’m sure this prayer is pretty incoherent, but in light of my faith life as of late, I feel like it says all that I’ve been wanting to say to God.