You know, I never took people seriously when they said that exposing yourself to negative, morally questionable content brings you down spiritually. Kind of stupid of me, right? All I know is that over the past week or so, I’ve been listening to mostly religious music, praying my Rosary on the light rail and watching faith-centric films—and I feel unburdened for the first time in a while.
Last night’s movie was the 40-minute documentary The Third Way, which discusses the real Catholic attitude toward homosexuality. It was beautiful and uplifting, and it featured several of my favorite Catholic speakers, including Jason Evert, Christopher West and Chris Stefanick. Tonight’s feature film was October Baby, a movie I’ve been meaning to watch ever since it hit theatres in 2011. I might write a full review later, but for now, I can say that it was heartfelt and moving. The pro-life message was clear and effective, but there was no condemnation. It was about forgiveness, love and the value of every human life, themes that resonate powerfully with me. I was able to forgive the occasionally cheesy dialogue because I was so drawn in by the true-to-life story. You can find October Baby on Netflix right now; I suggest you check it out if you haven’t yet! The soundtrack is fantastically uplifting, featuring Steve Moakler, Mandi Mapes, Andrew Belle, tenth avenue north, The Afters and even real-life abortion survivor Gianna Jessen.
I feel at peace right now, and I don’t want the feeling to go away. I’ve been sad and anxious lately, but surrounding myself with beauty and love has made all the difference. My first semester of college is drawing to a close, and I’m thinking about how best to fill my long Christmas break. I might return to the Christian camp in NY where I worked over the summer. I should also look for other service/faith-building opportunities. Ministry, in all its forms, is such a passion of mine, and it brings out the absolute best in me. I love the person Christ is shaping me to be, and every day I feel a little more like her.
On a side note, I’ve been thinking a lot about men and their struggles with chastity. I’m rereading my TOB and rethinking the way I carry myself in front of the opposite sex. Modesty is a weak point for me, something I definitely want to work on. All you lovely men out there, your sisters in Christ are praying for you! I know it’s a struggle, but your perseverance is so beautiful—you’ll find the strength in Christ.
Goodnight, readers! I love you all, and what’s more, Christ loves you.
“I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.” — Mother Teresa