I always go MIA for long periods of time, then come back suddenly. I guess you’re all used to that by now. I guess a lot has happened, and I really do need to “restaple” my heart to Christ. It’s been a hard year, but I’m ready to stop living in fear that I’m somehow beyond God’s reach. Depression, eating disorder, anxiety, Dad leaving me—my God is greater than the sum of my fears. Just a stream of consciousness prayer I wrote to God today:
I ask You constantly for things I can’t even comprehend, so I’m going to humble my prayers to layman’s terms. I’m looking for Your peace, Lord, first and foremost. I pray that You will help me to quiet the intrusive, fear-stricken voices in my head so that I may listen to You instead and come to hear the quiet words You whisper into my heart. I trust that You’ll bring me back to Your arms, Jesus, and I promise You that I will, by the help of Your grace, let Your gentle, loving voice lead me back home. I’m a little lost right now, Jesus, but I will not give up. I love You more than I can understand, and, if nothing else, I will always stretch my arms toward You as You pull me back to shore. Again, I’ll say it, Jesus: I love You. I’ll give You my nothing if it’s all I have.
Out of context, I’m sure this prayer is pretty incoherent, but in light of my faith life as of late, I feel like it says all that I’ve been wanting to say to God.
Hey, I’m Katy! I’m a 17-year-old girl from Baltimore, MD. I’m creating this blog because I love Jesus and my Catholic faith. God has blessed me with the talent and passion for writing, and I’ve decided that I need to use those gifts for good. This blog will just be a record of my spiritual growth, my feelings, thoughts, prayers and whatnot. Music, books, movies, sites, quotes, stories that I find inspiring. Typical Catholic teen blog, I guess. (:
I spend so much time on sites like Facebook, Tumblr and Wanelo, just seeing how many likes/follows/reblogs I can get. My hopes are that this blog will be an escape from that, a place in the digital world where a Christian girl like me can speak her mind, find strength of faith, hopefully make a difference in someone else’s life. Right now, I’m just struggling with everything, I guess. God’s the one I’m running to in my fear and pain, and I feel Him telling me that this blog is a good idea.
Sorry for that little rant, but if you plan to follow my blog, I guess you’ll just have to get used to that. Anyway, I really hope I can be consistent in posting. And…that’s about it. God bless! ♥